Day Fifteen

Has your submission evolved over time? If so, how has it evolved for you and if not (or if you are just starting out) how might you see or imagine it evolving in the future?

My submission has evolved so much over the last five years that I have a hard time remembering how it was at first. It was really easy early on. I was submissive in bed and not really anywhere else. We also fought all the time and I have severe trust issues when He went away for work. I knew He was not fully satisfied with our marriage and I worried that He would stray. The first time I told Him I was going to do X and He said No was a complete shock. (I cannot remember what it was that I wanted all those years ago.) I was so angry with him. I threw a temper tantrum that would have made our toddler proud. I no longer “Tell” him anything. I ask for His permission and I try to gracefully accept His answer.

We are slowly growing our relationship and building on the structure He craves. I have always been His “Pet”. Not a puppy or kitten but a Human Pet. He started calling me Pet years ago in passing and it has slowly grown. The next step in our relationship is to explore the idea of being His full time Pet. I don’t think He will ask me to eat from a dish on the floor or go outside to potty. That isn't His thing. He wants to groom me, tell me what to eat, where to go, and decide my life. My girly rules are a part of this.

It is exciting and terrifying to try to move in this direction. I don’t want to lose what we have become.