Day Seven

Do you accept and/or expect discipline or punishments as a part of your submission? How do you feel about it?

McLintock - 1963
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Yes. I receive punishments. And I don’t like it.

Wait??? I need to write more than that?   

Punishment is a very real thing in our relationship but thankfully I do not get into trouble very often. He can use whatever He thinks is appropriate but usually it is spankings, grounding, corner time, and a stern talking to. Since the next question is about corporal punishments I will leave that for tomorrow.   J

I find grounding and corner time to be a harsh punishment for me. I do not like to sit and do nothing. I don’t like to think about what I did wrong or how my actions were out of line. My mind can be a dark and scary place sometimes. I can take a simple action and work it into the end of the world in just a few quick steps. It is a slippery slope for sure.

A stern talking to makes me cry. I hate to disappoint Him and sitting at His feet listening to all the ways I messed up is terrible. He has a way of speaking to me that is worse than any other punishment. It breaks my heart and scares me all at once. Sometimes I feel like it could melt the paint off the walls. It is just so cold and harsh compared to the way He normally speaks to me. I do everything I can to avoid that tone.

I wish I could say that I was the perfect house slave- I never mess up and He never has to punish me. I wish I was that good. The truth is that I am human. I make mistakes like everyone else. I am blessed with a compassionate and loving Master who knows the best ways to correct my actions without breaking who I am deep inside.