Something you hate about yourself.
As I sit here thinking about this question I am not surprised by my first answer. I HATE my body. More specifically, I hate being overweight. I am not huge. I have nice boobs and I like my ass. But I have several pounds to loose.
But honestly that isn't what I hate the most. I hate that I hide my body. I hate that I dislike myself so much. I hate thinking if only I could lose a few more pounds I would feel pretty. And I hate that I have always felt this way.
I grew up with two very slim sisters. They were (still are) skinny and treated me like I was a sumo wrestler. I starved myself in college and nearly had to be hospitalized. I look at pictures of that time and do not recognize myself. I was so thin. My bones stuck out and I looked sick. No wonder my family and Sir worried about me so much. I was not fat but at that time I still wanted to lose another 15 pounds. I remember hating my body so much. I was so young and stupid.
Now I am 34. I still hate the way I look but, more than that, I Hate feeling this way. I hate having a voice in my head that says “You can’t do that – Your Fat” or “Don’t share that picture- Your Fat”. I have worked on this issue for years but I really do not think I will ever look at myself and see someone who is beautiful.
Sir and I are working on this together now. He has an amazing body. He exercises all the time because it is FUN. (I really think He is crazy.) He loves me the way I am and tells me how beautiful I am every day. I am not trying to be skinny anymore. I am trying to be healthy. I want to lose weight but the number is not as important as it used to be. I want to be able to keep up with Sir and my children. I want to feel good about myself.