Quiet Time

Since He left I have spent time in my corner every night. He wants me to use this time to reflect on my day and to try and center myself.  So far I have failed miserably at it. I kneel by His chair on my pillows and I think about everything. My chore list that seems to be growing out of control. My children and their latest issues or appointments I forgot to make. My best real world vanilla friend who is leaving in just a few weeks and how alone I will feel once she is gone. My toxic family and all their problems. I even worry about what color I am going to paint our living room. I think about everything and wind up more stressed than when I sat down. 

I realized something tonight as I sat in my corner for quiet time. All of the things I was stressing over really don't matter. I have a husband and Master who loves me. I please Him and care for His home the way He wants. My children are smart and happy and healthy. Yes, the house can get messy but all the important things are done. 

I am terrible at corner time. I will always make my mental lists and stress over the little things. I will always find my mind racing and the off button broken. But tonight, for just a moment, I was able to stop my mind and just breathe. It didn't last long but I am happy with my small bit of peace.