Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Sad Day

I have started this post and deleted it several times. Some things are just hard to talk about. Some things are just personal. Isn't it strange that I can talk about sex and beatings, but talking about other things makes me uncomfortable.

Master is in the military. He is EOD (think the movie "The Hurtlocker"). He is bomb squad and so much more. He has deployed several times. He has been sent home early due to injury every time. It is my worst nightmare - life without Him. He leaves again in June and we will start a long distance relationship. We find that we grow closer with our time apart but it is still torture. We have been together since August 31, 1998. The only times we have been separated is when the military sends him somewhere I can not go.

We are in the countdown. I have to help find his gear, pack his equipment, organize the household things, and just get ready in general. He will be gone until February - 8 months. He will still approve our calender, our meal plan, the bills, our holiday plans, and anything else he controls now. We will talk daily and email constantly but the time difference will make it difficult.

It is just a sad day for me.



One a happy note, I was able to clean the kitchen today and start a Pot Roast for dinner. Go me!! I am slowly getting better.

6 comments:

  1. I'm a military wife living this life as well. It's not easy and I so feel your pain .. You can email me if you want to chat I know that privacy in our types of relationships are necessary but to find other military spouses is exciting . We live so different then most and then add a D/s relationship .D comes and goes we did 11 mths apart last year he's been in 20+ years I know how you feel and EOD scary ! I won't say be a big girl or hang in there you know how it all goes just enjoy your time ... Here's my email if you ever want to chat .. Bigdlils0114@gmail.com ~ s

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    1. I asked Him if I could post that he was in the military and it was a long time before He answered me - like days. I was very happy that He decided I could include that part of our lives. It really is a huge part of who we are - and the main reason we do not have 'real world' friends in the D/s world.

      I am so Happy to know another military wife who understands the struggle.

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  2. D had a hard time saying yes as well. But now yes fine he gets excited when we find other D/s military couples :)

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    1. I have not had a chance to email you but feel free to email me!

      master-slave1279@outlook.com

      I told Him about your comment (I was almost jumping up and down) and he was very happy for me. I always feel like we have a huge secret when we are around other military couples. It can be exhausting! :)

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  3. Not many in EOD....w/o specifics, I have a family member who just retired after 28?yrs of the same and now is a civilian professor to his solders. Welcome to blog land! Sorry this is such a late to the party post but I just popped on over from lils's suggestion =)
    XOXO Pearl

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    1. Isn't s great?!?

      Thank you for stopping by. We don't know what He will do after the military but I do know that He loves what he does.

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