Saturday, February 14, 2015

Homecomings and Strangers

Seeing Daddy walk off the plane was probably one of the best moments of my life. He ran through the gates and was immediately tackled by the boys. Then it was my turn. Getting to touch Him again was so amazing. The hugs and kisses were what I was missing for so many months. The weight I had been carrying around with me for so long just lifted away.

The drive home was spent holding hands and kissing necks and teasing one another. (And He finally was able to drive the Pathfinder that He bought me while over there. Thankfully He likes it!) Two hours had passed by before we were finally home, the kids were in bed, and we were able to be alone.

We have loved each other for over 15 years, yet at that moment, we were strangers again. The awkward touches and hesitant words said so much more than their surface meanings. Learning to be together again at times can be new and exciting, but for the most part it is a like inviting a stranger to live in the shadows of a former love. He will never be the same man He was before this deployment. I can never be the same girl. Too much has happened. We have changed too much.

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  1. So glad He is home.

    I think my current writing resembles your thought process, when you read between the lines.

    You will find each other. It will be better than before. Just take it a day at a time.

    Welcome home, soldier! Thank you for serving your country.

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    1. Thank you. I know it takes time but I seem to forget how hard the transitions really are. They always come as a surprise. :)

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  2. Your words brought me to tears. Through each of my family members and friends in your situation, I never once saw it the way you just explained. Heartbreaking and beautiful all at the same time.

    What you two are doing is nothing short of amazing. I wish you both comfort in each others arms, pride in each others characters, and all the passion that you both so very much deserve.

    LOVE to you both my friend!
    XOXO Pearl

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    1. Thank You...You brought me to tears. I am glad I was able to share these feelings with everyone. I feel so alone sometimes in both our military life and our private life. Very few get how much everything is tied together. <3

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    2. I assure you, that although yes this has to be through blog-land, you are not alone when you are here!
      XOXO

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  3. Good luck on your reunion. You have both changed but let's hope things will be better than ever.

    FD

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    1. FD,

      I know we will be stronger than before...It just takes time. :)

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