Done. Just Done.

He still is not home.

We don't know when He will be home.

I am so done with this deployment.

New Car

He still surprises me often and today He topped them all.

Some wives get flowers when their husbands are gone. Or cute little love notes. But not me. My Sir bought me a new car! He is on the other side of the world and He found a way to buy a car here in the states.  Not just any car. A 2014 Nissan Pathfinder Platinum 4x4 with every little thing you could add to it. It is beautiful. It is more than anything I had ever expected. He is a wonderful Master and I am a very spoiled pet.

I did find out why He bought this SUV. It is large enough to put a crate in the back and has tie down points so that He can secure it. He has some devilish plans for me in mind 

Questions For Him #5

How do I see our relationship evolving in the future? 

I am not sure about this one. I have thoughts and fantasies that involve
playing in front of others. I want others to see what I can do to her, and what she does for me. I want others to feel the marks across her bare skin, to see the love she holds for me in her submission. I want to see another slave touch her in an understanding and supportive way. I want to attend get together's where she can kneel at my feet and nobody cares or looks at us funny or like we are weird. 

I am not sure that I could ever let another man touch her in the ways I do. I tend to be a very jealous man over my toys. I am not saying that it would never happen but who knows on that road. I do know that I want to see her grow even more into this role. I want to see how she takes on the new challenges of being in a new place and never taking her collar off. New to the area, nobody will know that it isn't a pretty necklace. And those that do know will share a quiet smile with us and go about their day. 

I want to see her blog grow and see how people read it and react to it. I look forward to getting her a tattoo that will be seen by all should she ever need to not wear the collar. I look forward to the idea of getting her nipples pierced and marking her further as mine. I can't wait to get home and see her in person with the new tail and ears I have bought her. The future holds so very much for us and I cannot wait to see it all unfold. 

Questions For Him #4

What Characteristics should a Dom/Master have?

A good Master needs to be strong and I don't mean muscles. It needs to be a mental strength, a fortitude that lets him be able to give orders and follow up to make sure that it is done. And be able to give out punishment as it is needed. Yet we also need to be able to have those moments where we need to have someone to break down to. Being able to just sit there and be held from time to time is the real strength that any person holds.  

Also a good Master has to be able to read their slave. I know my little pet so well that she never has to use her safe words. I can read her body language so well that I know the difference that one more swat will bring tears of shear pain and that of being done for the session being done. 

Questions For Him #3

How do I see the pet dynamic playing out?

I am not sure on this one either. I want to see her grow as my pet. I see the pet dynamic much like the Daddy/little one (only without feeling odd about it) I am not saying there is anything wrong with any lifestyle, but I just can't do the Daddy thing. With the pet scene I am still her Master. I will always be her Master but with this, there comes some extra perks for me. I am not into bestiality by any means, but the ownership of a pet is like that of a slave. She will eat when I let her, use the restroom when it is time, get groomed regularly and yes.she will wear a tail and lay at my feet. It might be a clip on for her clothes, or it might be a plug inside of her. But she will wear one. She will not get on the furniture without permission. She will be shaved in all the right places. She will have a collar and leash. And I will throw her a bone when she is good and punish her when she is bad. I want to get a cage for her to sit in for her kneeling time. Her reflection time. I see it as a good thing for her to have her own time for a little while. But it will be under my rules, like everything else.

Questions for Him #2

What does D/s or M/s mean to you? How do you define your relationship?

The Dom/sub or Master/slave role in our life is something very special to me. I am a Dom. I am a Master. I am a Sir. I have a sub/slave/pet. She is mine. It is my job to provide for her and give her a place to feel safe. A place in order for her to be able to serve all of my needs as they come up. These may be sexual needs, or a clean house, or to ensure that I know where she is at all times. It is my job to provide for my little pet. I enjoy the responsibility that comes with it. I want to take care of her and pamper her like a high quality pet. You wouldn't treat this thing of beauty, this property, like trash. I make sure that her grooming standards are to my satisfaction. Everything from her nails, hair, clothes, looks, under wear - all of it - It is all mine to control and rule. I can choose to do this with care and love or I can choose to do this with pain and discipline. 

I do not abuse my little pet. What I do is not spousal abuse. It is a
correctional tool. I am making her into what she wants to be. No matter what her life growing up was, this is who she is now. This is our life 24/7. This is a very 50's household that we have. I am the man of the house. I make the rules and she follows them. I earn the money and I choose how we spend it. I pick what she eats, what she wears, how to use her body to my satisfaction.  

I have never been happier than I am in this role. It has helped with my
self-confidence. I am more in control of my life. I have PTSD and have
suffered mentally due to the things I have seen and done in war. This brings me back to a good place. A centered area that no therapists could have given me. 

At some point we may/will add more than we already have, but our roles are clearly defined. I am her Master. She is my pet. 

Questions For Him #1

I had several questions for Him after I finished my 30 days of submission. Sir was very open to the idea of answering some of them for me to put on my blog. It feels kinda strange to have someone else's words on my very personal blog but His answers are really wonderful.   :)

What did I learn in her 30 days of submission posts?

My pet just finished her 30 days of submission and I think I may have learned more than she did. I saw her grow when she realized that she was really in the role that she was meant to be in. That her consent to this role, her commitment to her place in this world, was seeded so many years ago. It is my job to ensure that she is always safe and taken care of. She knows that she can talk to me about anything as long as she does it in the right way. And she knows what the right way is. She is willing to grow in this role and her knowing this, her realizing this, has made me happier than I have ever been in my life.