30 Days of Kink - Day Five

What was your first kinky sexual experience?  If you haven’t had one yet, talk about what you hope to have happen?

The first ‘kinky’ experience is not that wild and crazy. It was a one night stand with a boy I met on my first day in college. We had known each other for three days. We were with friends at a dance but we ended up having sex on campus – under a pine tree – by the Art building. I had a pine cone stabbing me in the butt. We didn't even get undressed. 

Today I call that boy Master. 

30 Days of Kink - Day Four

Any early experiences that, in retrospect, hint at your kinks?

Not really. I didn't discover my kinky side until He started to discover His. We grew together which has brought us closer together. We both know each other so well. We don’t have to have a talk about what we have tried and what we didn't like with past partners because all our kink has been together.

30 Days of Kink - Day Three

How did you discover you were kinky?

Hmmm….I don’t think I had a certain day that I had a light bulb moment. I slowly discovered my Kinky side as He discovered His. We really did just grow on each other’s personal discoveries. We have always had a lot of sex but slowly we started to add in a toy or try something new more and more often. I think our first toy was a small vibrator when we were still in college. It opened up a whole new world of sex toys and we now own a huge selection.

I approached Him with this lifestyle while He was away. I just sent Him a blog I had read and waited for His response. I was surprised when He did not freak out. We started talking about kink and submission and wonderful rough sex. This conversation is still going on after all these years. I am very thankful He wanted to be my Master and that we balance each other so well. 

30 Days of Kink - Day Two

List your kinks.

I find this one fun!

Spankings are really important to me- Not punishment spankings since those have to go past the fun turn on part to painful in order to be effective. Nothing gets me wetter, faster than a spanking from Sir.

Bondage – ties, ropes, blindfolds, cuffs, and mental. Him telling me “Do Not Move” is just as good as actual physical restraints.

Being His Pet and everything that goes with it from grooming (mani/pedi, hair, shaving) to wearing a plug with a tail.

Rules and structure – I don’t know if this is a kink or not. It centers me. It helps me to let go of my stresses and worries. And it is a huge turn on when He says no to me. It doesn’t happen often but I like to know that He can do it.

Anal – I LOVE anal sex, plugs, and beads. My favorite sexual act is for Him to hold me down and forcefully take my ass. I love the way it feels when He pushes my shoulders down and I present my ass to him. Just the thought of it makes me happy.  

30 Days Of Kink - Day One

Dom, sub, switch?  What parts of BDSM interest you?  Give us an interesting in-depth definition of what that means to you. Basically define your kinky self for us.

I am a submissive. The thought of being a switch just freaks me out. I could never be in charge or force someone to do something. It just isn’t in me. 

By being a submissive I get to please Sir. I get to follow His desires and meet His needs with my body. Sometimes that means I get to be tied and restrained. He uses this time to play with my body and do whatever His hearts desires. Other times He likes for me to put up a little bit of a fight. Those nights are harder for me. My natural instinct is to submit to Him - not try to stop Him. It just goes against everything that I am.

I am a masochist. It took a long time for me to understand this and even longer for me to tell Sir.  I need to be under His control. It centers me. It lets me hand over my problems to Him so I can just focus on what is important. My servitude to Him. 

I used to worry about everything. I had to have lists and lists and more lists. I thought about problems that did not exists and stressed over things we had already done. I was miserable. He was miserable. Our child was miserable. This was not a healthy way for us to live. The day I handed Him everything I immediately felt better. I am not saying I completely forgot about all my worries but I did know that when they popped into my mind I could just ignore them. He had them. I didn't have to worry.

I have given Sir my body. He can use it in any way that pleases Him. I am available to Him sexually at all times. He can pierce or tattoo me. He can make me dress a certain way or get my nails done. He has complete control over me and He corrects me when I mess up. He uses lectures, spankings, corner time, and so many other things to help me become the Pet He desires.

It really is a simple life for me (and I am sure it is a lot of work for Him). I would not want to trade places or go back to the way it was before. 

Questions, Questions, Questions

I just finished the 30 days of Submission questions and I am continually staring at a blank screen trying to come up with something to write about. It isn't working for me. I need Him here to give my life excitement.

I love to read blogs. It is what I do when I get a break from laundry and dishes and chores. I enjoy reading Brats blog (Mortuary Chick) and she has started working on a couple of new challenges- 30 Days of Kink and 30 Days of Truth. I figured I copied her on the first questions so I will just do the same with these.   :)

I hope it will help me find other things to write about and keep my blog from disappearing. Sir told me He liked the idea of more questions but if I start them I have to finish them in a timely manner. So I have a plan. I will do one question every other day and I will mix up the two lines of questions. Hopefully this will take me all the way to His homecoming.